What I want and who I am are two very different things, and my whole life I have tried to reconcile the two. Maybe I can have both, maybe I can be both. But i don’t know if it’s even possible, so I’ve constantly had this image, this goal, that I am physically unable, or unwilling, to measure up to. I have to make a conscious decision at this point to either move forward and try, or to stop and embrace what is the here and now of it, possibly resigning myself to complacency. It’s not going to be easy, or short, or painless. So, in effort to be my best self, my truest self, I have to disconnect for a bit and pursue something more meaningful. Check ya later, tumblr, internets. I’m going “outside”, and I don’t know when I’m coming back.